So I just wondered today how many bad choices I made that effected the ones I love. Recently I made a rash decision that effected friends and family. Jump take it, no I should have held to the plan and waited. Well at least that is what I am telling myself. Why has my planning been so great so far. NO I have made 3 to 1 bad to good decisions. I am over 50 and still have no hope of ever retiring. I will work up till the day I die. I have to there is always somebody I owe, or somebody to pay.
You try and live your life to make a better life for your family and you look and say did I really make it better for them? I do not think so. So I live with that every freaking day of my life. Where did I make the first wrong turn ? Can I trace it all the way back to my decision on high school ? Maybe I should have gone to Tech. Then I would have had a trade. I also would have had a better chance to make a few bucks along the way. Nope let's work retail. 50 - 80 hours a week, nights, weekends, holidays. That will make for a great family life. Sure, you'll be there for your wife and kids. NOT.
Regret, it is a painful reminder that you should have, made a better life for your family, and that you made too many bad decisions due to a poorly thought out plan.
Sure I made some good decisions, marrying my wife, having two great kids together, making sure I got to know my dad before it was too late, and getting back in touch with friends who reminded me of how good we had it once.
Oh well, that is my ramble for now. may you be granted the wisdom to learn quickly and correct those choices that will not help you.
Big Ez Ed
The Unread Ramblings Of A Middle Aged Man
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Monday, June 25, 2012
wow it has been forever since I Blogged Here. I come and look at it, but haven't posted in a long time. Must be the lure of FB.
Well, much has happened. We will however focus on the last three months. I made rash decision to accept a position in CT. Should have thought it out a bit longer.
I expected to find the CT of my memory, and vacation visits. NOT. I found that I still have no time for myself, family or friends due to the amount of hours I work. I also realized the cost of CT is not just in the housing. TAXES will kill me. Gas, Power, Food etc.... you are all so much more expensive.
Well, much has happened. We will however focus on the last three months. I made rash decision to accept a position in CT. Should have thought it out a bit longer.
I expected to find the CT of my memory, and vacation visits. NOT. I found that I still have no time for myself, family or friends due to the amount of hours I work. I also realized the cost of CT is not just in the housing. TAXES will kill me. Gas, Power, Food etc.... you are all so much more expensive.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Saturday, December 18, 2010
So Today
I realized I should have been a film maker. I love putting pictures in to a Video format and syncing them with a song that has some meaning
Thursday, December 16, 2010
wow
I realized today that not only have I not visited my blog in forever, it has been longer since I posted here. I don't have anything today, but this weekend I will. Not that anybody reads this thing, but I like it
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